Lisa “B4by-G” Mok

Who am i in the process of becoming?

"What if fine isn’t good enough? What if I want extraordinary?” – from the movie, Hitch

  (This is) a song of David for the music leader.

v1      How long, LORD, will you forget me? For all time?
     How long will you hide your face from me?

v2      How long must I think such sad thoughts? All day long?
     How long will my enemy win?

v3      Look! Answer me LORD.
     My God, give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death.

v4      My enemy will say, "I beat him!"
     My enemies will be very happy when I fall.

v5      But I will believe in your love that never fails.
     My heart will be very happy because you make me safe.

v6      I will sing to the LORD.
     He is so good to me.

sometimes people spend money

on the things they don’t need

to impress peope they don’t know

i was thinking…how do you measure your self worth? why some people put up with others who treat them like a dirt?

life is a series of decision that we made and there is no such excuse as ‘i got no choice’ because everybody does

again..

back to the question of how u measure your self value?

Is your happiness depends on others? do you put ur happiness on others’ hand?

then how weak it is!

It’s like..

if people treat you bad then you will feel bad about urself

if people say bad thing about you then you will feel bad about urself

if people ignore you then you will feel bad about urself

if people leave you then you will feel bad about urself

why is it that you put ur own happiness into other’s hand? aren’t you supposed to be in-charge of your own happiness?!? aren’t you the one who-in charge of your own life?

why depends so much on others for your own self value?

it’s your life you live in

it’s your happiness we are talking about

Is making people feel inferior made us superior?

most of the time

i think it’s them

what they do unto you, doesn’t reflect your self value at all!

it’s what you think about urself that is matters!

love yourself and love others will be much easier

- just my random thought-

Singapore, 27.05.07

I hate feeling fake…more than anything in the world.
You wouldn’t believe what people tell you…
"You got to get into college. You got to figure out…
what you’re gonna do. You got to make money."
And we’re going…
"My God, I feel like I’m still a kid practically."
But your teachers and your parents and everybody’s got…
everything all planned out for you with high expectations.
But what if it has nothing to do with you?
You lose track of yourself.
And that’s fake.
We’re going into the future.
And I only have little clues as to what might be out there.
Sometimes, I’m scared to death.
Sometimes, I’m really excited.
And I just wish for everybody in my class…
no, for everybody… That whatever you do…
you do it true…
even if you mess up…
even if you fail.
I’d rather fail doing my own thing…
doing what I want to do…
than doing what somebody else wants me to do and succeeding.
I’d rather be fighting with my family…
than… pretending it’s all OK.
To the graduating class of     … go.
Go into the world and do it true.
Do it true.
Woo!

Just my random thought:

"Don’t behave..be yourself!"

Nobody can be accepted by everyone, that’s why nobody’s perfect.

I’m no body and that’s why i am perfect. =P

i hate it when people tell lies or not being honest.. oh well, maybe it just me.

lagi bete berat…PMS kali yah?!?!

I am having my CPA exam tomorrow. stress nih…

Tiap kali mo buka buku tax bawaannya langsung ngatuk..pengen tidur ‘mulu (now you know that’s how stressed i am ><). So hari ini g maksa-in buat belajar di public library aja (pikir g..kan kalo disana nga mungkin tidur ceritanya). Pas nyampe library, mejanya udah penuh semua..so g belajar di sofa aja.. tapi cuma bisa last for 2 hours..ngantuk berat..beneran g bisa tidur on the spot!

So g cabut dari library trus ke deliferance buat beli kopi..untungnya disana banyak meja kosong, plus lagi orang yang di depan meja g juga kayaknya lagi belajar (soalnya di mejanya juga banyak kertas2). Nga tau udah duduk berapa jam..tau2 hujan.. kan g duduknya di luar (abis nga tahan AC), anginnya kenceng banget..g nga tahan..akhirnya pulang deh..begitu pulang yang ada langsung tidur!! kacau >_+

bangun2 udah malam.. nyalain tv..eh lagi ada drama korea. lucu banget deh filmnya..judulnya my boyfriend is type B. Sambil belajar sambil nonton. (belajarnya pas iklan doang) =P.

gt deh..my exam preparation.. hiks…

btw, client g yang obsesi berat ama g itu kayaknya udah balik dari liburan panjangnya..abis kemarin jumat sore tau2 dia telp g 5x!! g nga angkat, soalnya hp g ketumpuk ama kertas2 gt. pas g check hp g..udah ada miscall banyak banget.

want to bet?! g rasa besok dia bakal telp ber-puluh2 kali krn g nga bakalan angkat telp g (lagi ujian gt lho!). EGP deh..bete-in banget orangnya soalnya. plus g curiganya dia nga ada temen ngobrol di kantor barunya, makanya telp and nge-rong2 g terus..BT! 

anyway, wish me luck yah! >_+

Happy Oink Oink Year!

The good thing about chinese new year is that I finally find time to catch up with my sleep. Friday we were working half day and by half day for me it means go back on 5.30pm  >_+ (not at 1.00 pm as other normal people have)

but anyway, i am still grateful to have this long weekend..been doing nothing except eat, sleep and more sleep. Totally pigged out (speaking about celebrating the spirit of pig year) =P

Called my parents, sister and brothers.. it’s been 5 years (i think?! can’t remember ), that i didn’t celebrate chinese new year with my family. (mental note : got to call them more often)

Today, i got a missed call from office on 11 in the morning (when it’s holiday, 11 a.m is considered morning, right?!). I wonder who called me, so i checked the office’s phone directory.. turn out it was from a supervisor from other division.  The first thing i think of .. "is today still holiday? or maybe we only have 1 day holiday on Monday?!", so i checked the sametime connect.. no body is online.. so, it is STILL holiday.  I was like #%^&#?! (*speechless*)…

Anyway, this long weekend has been great. no phone call from that demanding client (who chasing me like crazy just because she wants to have a long holiday after cny!), no ‘friendly reminder’ deadline from HK..until that stupid phone call. ><

Tomorrow, need to go back to work…

Happy chinese new year everyone!

Remember yesterday i said that the accountant will be back from her leave? so today, i met her and i was doing the PnL section (profit and loss). And there is this payroll fluxtuation analysis that i need to do..but i don’t have the number of headcount in Feb’06.

So, i went to her and ask whether she knows the number of headcount in February.. i told her that it is not in the payroll summary - she attached in the journal voucher.

then she checked it out and also can’t find the information, so she said she’s going to fotocopy the payroll summary as a proof to her boss that the headcount number is not there.

client: ok, i’ll ask my boss about the headcount number. i fotocopy this payroll summary so my boss can see that the headcount number is not there. =)

me : okay. thanks. btw, your boss - Chelsea? (i am thinking of making appointment to do some analytical reviews with her boss who is the Finance Controller)

client: no, not Chelsea. i am going to ask chelsia

me : chelsia ?! who is she? (i thought the FC name is chelsea?!)

client : my boss lor *with singlish accent*

me : eh?! so then.. Who is Chelsea?

client: Chelsea is a soccer team.

me : what? soccer team? ( i thought this company is only sell branded items i.e. Dior, Loewe, LV or does Dior also manufacture a soccer apparel!? why i never heard of it. I was like… shoot..is there any entity i don’t even know of..and this is already the 3rd day of the audit. how to meet the deadline?!?!?!)

Client: yeah..Chelsea is a soccer team’s name. my FC name is Chelsia… c.h.e.l.s.i.a. =D

me: oh…ok ok.. hahaha…   *Geez… blur already*

my co-worker said.."cow also die if working like this"

I think everybody is working like crazy this past few weeks

Happy auditing season everyone!